It is like we are all constantly chasing that feeling of happiness. To feel that we have reached our desired destination. To finally feel "happy".

Expectations. We all have them. We can't help but feel them, yet we know deep down that having them allows for disappointment. No one likes to be disappointed. So why do we hold onto expectations? What is the point of having them if we are opening ourselves to disappointment?

Why would me parents do that? Why would my boyfriend say that? How can my best friend do that? Why would my boss treat someone like this? How can someone say and do these hurtful things? All of these unanswered questions I carried around with me.

He knew my past, he knew my insecurities, he knew how to use it against me and at the time, I believed him. After all, who would want someone like me? 

No pain no gain right?

She doesn't want you to know this.